I spent a lifetime
Once, trying to love you right
Didn't work, sorry
SunrisesI want to fall asleep with you
and run my hand up and down your spine
counting the ridges as I go
I want to feel your breath on mine
from shallow to deep with aching sleep
and barely brushing my eyelashes
I want to place my hand on your hip
and run my thumb over it, softly
just to watch your eyes flutter
I want to push your hair out of my face
when you turn and nudge into my neck
and your nose presses to my cheek
I want to fall in love with you
as the sun rises early morning
and casts an orange glow around the room
UntitledI am the wind howling in the eaves
pacing the trails of your dragging knees
I watch as you mourn, gaze as
your darkened eyes hollow out
little by little, day by day
You do not see me and I, not you
I gather the clues you leave behind
I piece them together in my mind
with the string unraveled from your guise
But when I find you, when I see you
I do not expect your forlorn figure, lined
in moonlight, crumpled between
I acknowledge you will have faded
your drawling footsteps will have ended there
And I may whistle around the spot you have been
but I will not see you; you have not lived
So close and
I'm so very different than you
I cannot win you dearly pallid
Ivory sullen and ghastly
Face sunken in your love in me
Your cheekbones are visibly silver
I only wish
I could lose you
My transparency child
BlackYour fingers drape on porcelain skin
They blind me in the blacklight
Ebony and pale and all inbetween
Who could love another but you?
For you are the one of the eclipse
UV rays on sunlit days
The satellite to my star
And D, all of the above
I only wish
I could hold you
A Cliche Killjoy FanFic Chapter 2ZERO HERO'S P.O.V.
Done and done, I thought as I strolled out of the back door to the BL/ind hospital, pushing a cart of oxygen tanks in front of me. I was a drac, nobody cared. I grinned under my drac mask as I loaded the oxygen tanks, one by one, into the back of the car. Thirty tanks were loaded, and Neg and I were ready to go. I pushed the cart away from me, and climbed in the front seat.
It took my a second to realize there was no Negative Grenade. "Negative?!" I called frantically, twisting around in my seat. "Neegaative?" There was no answer, of course, just an eerie silence and an empty space where Negative should have been. "Negative, don't kid!" Stumbling out of my car, I saw there was a troupe of draculoids heading towards me. By now I had taken off my mask. There was nowhere to hide.
Instead, I jumped back in the car and pressed. It sped forward; this was my only desperate attempt to get away. The bulle
A Cliche Killjoy FanFic Chapter 1ZERO HERO'S P.O.V.
It's almost been a year out here in the desert. A year since I pulled the IV line out of Negative Grenade and wheeled his gurney out of the hospital, boxes and boxes of medication beside him. A year since the second trip back to retrieve the carts of oxygen tanks needed for Neg's survival. Two years since Neg himself was diagnosed with lung cancer - the specific name unknown.
Neg and I haven't even met the Fabulous Killjoys yet. At least, not the main four. We've definitely met several out here in the zones, people like House Rules and Atomic Nucleus(she really liked science, by the way). Mostly I've been keeping myself away from them, though, hiding myself and Negative Grenade in an abandoned shed along the road. We meet the 'Joys to stock up on food and catch up on news around the zones. But still, most of our information comes from Dr. Death Defying's radio station.
Today was oxygen day
A Sinner's LullabyHush little baby,
Don’t say a word.
The lines between good and sin
Close your eyes,
And say goodnight.
You’ll find your light.
Have sweet dreams,
My dear young love.
You’re barren of.
Hush little baby,
Rest your head.
Your shining hope
Is not yet dead.
Thoughts can be useless.
They don't help in a fight.
In the spur of the moment,
We don't think quite right.
For us it was years though.
With no time to waste
All that we wanted
Was Mom's smiling face...
Instead I lost one.
My brother's sound fate
A soul clad in armor
My horrific mistake.
But now we're relentless.
We search for a way
To correct our mistakes
And go on, come what may.
Now my future is set.
No regrets, can't backpedal.
I'll jump into the fray
With a heart made Fullmetal.
*Farewell*Smell floral decay
Grim reaper had his way
Tears saturate burial ground
Quiet sobbing, mournful sound.
Departing from nearby gate
Emphatic soul cannot wait
Mortal life has no claim
Taking leave from this domain.
Mirrored EyesMy mirrored eyes
Reflect what people see
Not my lies
But yet it’s me
Cast the shadow
That steals my form
Release the arrow
Unleash the storm
The damns break apart
Sealed inside no more
It took but a single dart
To penetrate the core
You've unleashed a sea
That was locked away
Deep inside of me
All my fears are washed away
But then I return
To the place I flood
What didn't burn
Is stained in blood
I clean the mess
I left behind
The game of chess
At last aligned
Shove me under cold watersWhy is this world so cold?
Why do their stares match their hearts?
What did I do to them..?
I was born this way priest..
Why do your followers hate me so much?
Why do they wish to burn me on a stake?
Why do they chant for me to burn in Hell?
Have I truly done anything wrong?
Is being born like this a sin?
Why is hiding who I truly am gonna save me?
Priest..Will you baptise me today?
Will you pray for me, every night before you close your eyes?
Or will you shun me like your followers have?
Is your religion just smoke and mirrors?
What do I have left to hold on to?
Shove me under cold waters, priest.
Or I will plunge into them myself...
Broken LetterSometimes I wake to silence,
And my heart breaks again.
Sometimes I hear your laughter
in the echoes of the rain,
some times I feel your hand
touching mine, and feel the pain
as I remember you are no longer there.
If it would mean that for a day
I could walk with you,
I would sell my soul
for a chance to make that true.
If I could hold you for a moment
I know I could make it though,
but I can't, and darkness fills me.
I think some times how easy
it would be for me to die.
I lie awake and think of you,
alone I sit and cry,
and in the shadow of my pain
I cling to life and try
to be someone that you can view with pride.
Each day I work my hands
till they bleed and break.
each night I sit and suffer
as I relive each mistake,
Always have I loved you,
without you here I fear I'll break.
But for you I will try to hold on.
In my dreams you call my name
asking why I let you go.
You look on with teary eyes
such inner pain your face will show,
and wake in tears of anguish
JackCarve out my inside
Leaving me hollow and cold
With a fake smile
And a falsely burning heart
Too soon I’ll just rot away
Little BirdHello little birdy,
Won't you bring me along.
I see you chirping so beautifully,
a very sad song.
You fly with grace,
And fly with speed.
Chasing your other birdy friends,
Way up in the trees.
Won't you stay a while,
Little birdy, with me.
I need someone to sit here,
And sing with me.
But your smart,
Little birdy, just you fly away.
Don’t stay with the girl,
That has lost her way.
A Pair of Blue Eyes
Oh hark, to my surprise,
All I see are those same blue eyes
The same eyes filled with wonder,
Filled with mystery
Which led me to ponder what
Became of thier history
The pair of blue eyes that haunt me
The same eyes that taunt me
I see them in the darkest shadows
Rising up, hitting me like arrows
I feel drawn to thier light,
They can be as black as night
With that a lot can be told
Eyes are windows to the soul
The pair of eyes that tease me,
The same eyes don't appease me,
They try to push me away
And thought there is danger; I must stay
Those same blue eyes hold a secret I want to see
The person who owns them, means so much to me.